What happens when you lack a finger on both hands and you need hand gestures for the trackpad of MacBook pro?

It would be miserable right? You can’t do the gestures of swiping and doing expose and all in the MacBook laptop. Luckily, I have my fingers complete. It’s just got me thinking what if I have such misfortune.

Why I’m writing this post is simply to share my thoughts on how it could get for you to lack something very essential. We should be happy with what we have.. bla bla bla. Yes its totally nonsense, but you get what I mean. So be happy. I wish that was simple.

Right now I’m depressed without knowing why I get to be. Could it be the hangover from beer? It’s a depressant so I’m guessing it ruins your hormones and mood and feelings and so on. Whatever, but I hate being depressed being incompetent and lack of action.  That’s why I thought of logo therapy and all. It gives way to my thoughts regarding the lacking finger. That’s sad, but I’m sad as well. We are sad sometimes. I just hate it when I’m sad. I guess we all do.

One thing I’ve noticed is that I get inspired to write when I feel sad. What the heck, I’m part of the “emo” class. This is disgusting. I remembered back in the days when I write poems and songs when I get sad. It’s not at all weird but it’s worth to note. All in all, “I’m glad that I get to be sad”..

I kept on listening to the song “Miss Misery” by Elliott Smith, why the hell do good musicians have to die? The world needs them. I surely want some more of these songs. It makes me crazily depressed. A sad song is a cute song for me.. Try to listen to it and truly miss misery.. Don’t forget to loop it down.

It’s all right to get nothing to do, to get depressed and to think how better you are compared to a person lacking fingers who can’t make use of the gestures on a mac. I mean what am I saying? I don’t know anymore. Let’s just move on with life.

As the song goes, "I'll fake it through the day with a help from johnny walker red"

A Window to the Future

Wouldn't it be great to see the future in a window and see yourself on the other side having all the things that you have been dreaming of today? I call this a window to the future. It is a great invention I hope to create (or created). It goes like this.

It started when I thought about some experts telling us to dream and work for that dream. I realized that with dedication, that dream becomes a picture in the mind. Then it becomes a thought. This soon manifests and it turns out to be a painting. Yes, a real painting that you can touch, feel and understand what it tries to say. But I want to develop something more. I want to create a window, instead of just an ordinary thought or painting.  This time, you truly see the outside world, a world that shows the “real future.”

Now, it’s not a lie or fake, it is reality that is just not bound with time yet. Really think about it and don't stop. By the way, I don’t know if you'll consider what I see, but if you have that window you’ll realize that it only takes one simple step outside and you’ll get there. But still, we are beings bound by time. We can’t do it. All we can do is observe and watch the future through that window. You don't have to doubt its validity. Don’t worry it’s real.

Now continue to dig deep. You realized that this person outside the window already have all the things you’ve dreamed of, all the things you ever wanted. He/ She made it! You don’t know how, but she did reach all your goals. This window is totally amazing but it’s probably useless seeing that only. So, it doesn’t end with that. You can actually get the secret of that person in the future. What I mean is, you will know what she or he did to reach his or her current state.

It is as simple as asking a question.  That question will be, “What if we turn the window the other way around?” I’m thinking of placing yourself inside that future you and turn time around. It’s the same you after all. Same consciousness same body, same capabilities. Once you realize it, the “you” on the other side will see the “you” in the current time. Can you imagine it now? Well, basically, it is an out of body experience that you get to be in unison with the thoughts and ideas of the future you. You then seek the answer and slowly retrace the steps. All your questions’ answers lie ahead. You know it.
Now go back.

That ends the concept of “window to the future”. This window can become the solution of your concerns and worries that is if you truly consider it. I am going to somehow explain this deeper in a book or maybe on later posts.

Of course, this is just a concept from this mind of mine. The window is just a simple tool for imagination and opening the power of the mind. I will dig deeper on this concept. However, what I want all people to understand is, “everyone has the power in them, the power to hold the future.” So let’s see it, feel it, taste it. It’s on our fingertips!

Facebook making people jealous and vain!

Have you noticed how facebook makes people jealous of others and also make them feel vain? Let's start with jealousy. One  may feel it creep in as you watch other people's Facebook wall, looking at their pics, vids, current activities, and anything that is comparable to your life. It's funny how we stare in awe at times (on how great their life has become) but at the same time disgusted -- even hopeful for a misfortune to fall upon them to cease them achieving what they have. This is quite toxic and let's admit, I think everyone feels the same way (sometimes). However, what i see here is that we are experiencing some side effects this so-called top notch social networking.

Did you also know that vanity is highly related to jealousy? We try to post pictures of us getting high, traveling across lush places, or pictures of us with our guys or girls in fun parties, while pigging out, and everything else that (including weird stuff) just serve to get us attention. Most often than not, we do these acts of vanity to show the world that we can beat those people whom we envy -- and so the cycle a starts... Now albums full of their faces (and by that their only faces) are flooding Facebook like a swarm of flies on a delicious outdoor meal.

This is sick. I don't know if there's a cure for this, but i am kinda sure we are going to continue these things that we do in facebook. There are no guidelines or common rules in social networking after all.

Come to think of it, all of these are not that bad actually. But I just want to say for those who dont know how to control themselves that they should be aware of this. And perhaps, try to stop looking at other person's wall or even your own wall to feel a lot more better. Good luck to all of us and happy Facebooking!

Walking Dreams

Doug Firebaugh mentioned, “Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.” It is such a wonderful quote that made me think about my dreams and aspirations and of course the future. The world today is a different world. We see a lot of hardships, failures and all those related stuff. Sometimes we worry too much that we forget about our dreams and the opportunity within us and surrounding us. This is bad, people tend to forget, in the end, we question what we are all about. Dreams define people and people define dreams. It is a mystery that we face and we ought not to understand but to feel.

So while I was reading the quote, I realized that I have forgotten some of my childhood dreams, the dreams that were hidden and washed away. I recognized that we need reminders and I’m quite glad that I was reminded about them. Anyhow, the quote reached me and I subtly uttered the words “walking dreams”. I perceived those words as the future or maybe the present (whichever applies). I might not see it in me but I may see it onto others. See, these dreams when they are realized, they come with the person. That’s why when such person had reached his or her dreams, the dream walks with them, or rather they become the manifestation of their dreams and thus, walking dreams.

Someday my dream will walk and to get to that “someday”, I will have to inch my self further towards the realization of those dreams. What I can do right now, however, is to share this thought and urge everyone to follow their dreams and be reminded of how good it is to dream; reminded of how beautiful our childhood dreams were.. Life is a beauty after all. Move further and grow a little inch more. We then live for tomorrow..

The meaning of Death

Death is a ceaseless occurrence or phenomenon that all living would someday face. I just visited two funerals last weekend and it was a new experience that led me to ask the question, "Why do people die?"

One of my teacher said that we live to die. For me, it's like a pessimistic way of seeing that we are living but it's temporary for we are bound to die. To think of it, we are here to live in this temporary world, with temporary feelings, temporary smiles and sadness, and whatsoever. Maybe people wanted to die after all and get away from all these "temporariness." The burden of these thoughts gets tiresome at times, if you know what I mean, but if not, then I'll explain it to you.

If only things were not temporary, you'd find love and it stays forever, you bought a new stuff like a computer or guitar and they last forever, you gave birth and the life last forever, you found happiness and happiness stays forever. What a weird and at the same time awesome world that would be.

But if you turn the statement live to die other way around that would result to: you will have to die in order to live. Dying is a form of living. Let's call it essence or energy for the thing that is left behind other than the body after death. This essence is spread to every love ones or people you have touched, and it stays with them. Also in dying you can feel that something has become alive, we can't pinpoint it or describe it, but it is there. For me it is an endless cycle, one that I can't comprehend as well.

But nothing is forever, well maybe after dying our essence would be in a state of something like forever but not necessarily like it, it is a word that is not coined yet. And in reply to my "ifs" on the love stays forever and all, is the other scenario where one may find hatred, then it would mean that the unlucky person shall stay with hatred forever, if sadness then it stay forever. You can't be in happiness and in sadness at the same time. It's ironic and its weird. Our current human state and our human minds can never comprehend that, it would be too complicated.

What I'm guessing is, the meaning of death is to actually be human. Live in a temporary world and die in a temporary world. Death is just a part of our human self, our human phenomenon, and our human thoughts, after that we become something we don't even know yet but we are certain about. That is oneness with everything, a subtle essence that plays part in the entire universe, and not just the world and people surrounding you. And for those people who are left behind in the temporary world, they sometimes feel the "essence" of the person who has left.

Well, with all of the stuff mentioned, I still don't know exactly the meaning of death. These thoughts even made me a lot more confused now. I would have to meet my deathbed to be able to answer these questions. But i can't wait for that, i just can't wait...

Fail with consequence, lose with eloquence and smile.

Was my favorite line from the song "consequence" by notwist, a very good song to listen and I just thought of sharing it to people. This song definitely makes me think a lot, and at the same time, makes you think less. I know its kinda weird, but these kinds of songs would be a perfect fit for background music especially areas of our lives where we feel like we're in movies, or lapses of infinity, or moments where we are hypnotized.

Life, enormous as it may be, is totally like music for me. You just open your ears, like what you do when you open your eyes. I let the colors of the song sink in, make it burst in my eardrums, rapidly splurging my brain's neuroacousticsensors for a treat of pleasure. And the beauty of it in life, same with music, is that you almost get it anywhere and anytime, to unexpected points of our lives.. It just "leaves me paralyzed" (another line from the song)

I love the song and i tried to loop it on youtube but i cant find a way to do it but it doesn't matter, sometimes in life we don't really care how many times we click the "play button". We're crazy at times, we always do the same thing all over again.  We all go through the hassle for the thing/s we love and as the song goes "leave me paralyzed love" (got to click play again)

by the way i discovered this song while watching "push", i'm not sure if i entirely love the movie, anyhow it just came perfect with the scenes. I got to say thank you (to the movie) for that, played it again.